Trauma

Trapped in the third dimension

llxwarbirdxll — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 19:02:39 -0700

Around last week, one of my computer's two monitors broke down, right after one of my external hard drives broke down the previous week. I didn't think much of it and continued to use my computer with the remaining monitor. It worked fine, albeit limiting myself to half the screen space that I was used to was suffocating. This morning, however, the other monitor died like its twin, meaning that I'm now stuck with a computer, with no monitor.

As a result of this, I won't be able to update my blog regularly, as I promised in my last post, until I have this situation ironed out. At the moment, I'm typing up this entry on my dad's computer, which is very slow and not sufficient enough to watch anime with.

What's even worse is that I was in the process of preparing a new layout for this blog, due to a few slip-ups that I've made, including, but not limited to, incompatibility with Internet Explorer and non-compliance with W3C standards. I've been looking forward to finally scrapping this layout, but I guess it won't be happening any time soon.

Hopefully, I'll be able to take care of these setbacks soon, so I can get back to blogging.

Also, this entry may or may not be "pessimistic" to a certain friend of mine, who shall be unnamed, so here's some kawaii biribiri, just in case:

My birthday is in the near future

llxwarbirdxll — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 21:51:34 -0700

I'll be turning 18. Looking back at my life so far, I haven't accomplished anything spectacular, besides being able to read and write English on a level that's somewhat higher than most others, that are around my age, in my country, which is America, sadly. These skills are wasted on someone like me, though. I can code, somewhat, maybe. I don't know, because I haven't been doing much of that for a while.

I'll soon be graduating from high school, in a few months. Actually, I don't even know if I will be graduating at all, because I've developed a terrible habit of falling asleep in most my classes. Even if I do graduate, though, I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I've been provisionally accepted to one college(still waiting on a few others), but I still don't know what I really want to do.

My life has been characterized by mediocrity, impatience, and half-assedness. I've tried picking up several different hobbies, like music and web development, hoping to refine them into real, practical skills, but, ultimately, laziness kicked in. In fact, I opened up this blog on Christmas Day, 2005, fully intending to actively update it with substantial posts about my life, which never happened. Later, I intended to convert it into a gaming blog, until I realized that I don't play video games as much as I thought I did, and even if I did, I wouldn't have much to say about any of them.

By May 21, 2007, most of my posts have been about my brand new forum signature or how I whipped up some terrible website layout after fiddling with various filters in Photoshop, because I couldn't bring myself to write anything substantial. Frustrated by the lack of effort I put into my posts, I scrapped whatever posts I made, and relaunched my blog on Oct 24, 2007. I had some good momentum going on for a bit, despite writing about frivolous and menial subjects. Eventually, though, I'd fall back on the formula of posting anime screenshots that seem amusing when taken out of context.

Over the last year or so, I've discovered several anime blogs that I've started reading: Continuing World, We Remember Love, 2-D Teleidoscope, Animanachronism, and many others. They always had something interesting to say, to accompany their amusing screenshots. They'd take miniscule, almost frivolous, items in these cartoons, analyze them, and make them look interesting. No; they made them interesting. I've felted determined to make my blog posts be as interesting and lengthy as theirs, but when it came down to actually writing them, my enthusiasm would wane, and I would always fall back to the same old formula of posting screenshots.

This time, though, I'll actually try to write, instead of half-assing my writing, and maybe, through this, learn to stop half-assing everything else in my life. It'll be a birthday present to myself.

Apr 25, 2010 update: A friend of mine has pointed out to me that this post is depressing as hell. To rectify this, here's another LO/Accelerator picture:

Dear spambots

llxwarbirdxll — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 19:32:40 -0800

I don't care about your cheap WoW gold, replica watches, free credit reports, or viagra. Please, fuck off. :|

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S

llxwarbirdxll — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 18:59:48 -0800

MISAKA says, "Happy New Year's!", too. :3

It's that time of year again

llxwarbirdxll — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 20:34:40 -0800